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Dear Annie: I got divorced after 27 years of marriage. I didn't leave because I stopped loving my husband -- I left because I was lonely inside my own home. We stopped talking, stopped laughing, stopped noticing each other. I spent years saying, "It's fine" until one day I realized I didn't want my life to be fine. I wanted it to be real.

My best friend, "Leah," was my lifeline during that time. She took my calls on my longest nights. She sat with me on my porch with a bottle of cheap wine and let me cry until my face felt tight. She told me I wasn't selfish, I was human. She promised me I wasn't alone.

After the divorce, I started dating again -- slowly, awkwardly, like learning to walk in new shoes. And then I met someone kind. He brings me coffee without asking. He remembers the names of my kids' friends. He looks at me like I'm not broken.

Leah's reaction has been ... strange. At first, she was supportive, but now she makes little comments: "Must be nice to have someone." Or "Don't get too excited -- you know how men are." She'll scroll through pictures of us and say, "He's fine, I guess." And when I told her he wanted to take me away for a weekend, she went quiet and said, "Well, some of us don't get to run off."

The part that hurts is that I've always been the one cheering her on. When she got promoted, I brought champagne. When her son struggled in school, I helped her find tutors. I've been loyal in a way I thought mattered.

Now, every time I share something happy, I feel myself bracing for the sting that follows. I don't want to lose her, but I also don't want to shrink my life to keep her comfortable. How do you handle a friendship that feels like it's punishing you for moving forward? -- Finally Happy, Quietly Guilty

Dear Finally Happy, Quietly Guilty: You did not leave a lonely marriage just to minimize yourself once again.

Leah's comments are not harmless. They are reeking with jealousy that she has dressed up as honesty. Call her behavior out once, kindly and clearly. Tell her you value her friendship, but the digs need to stop.

If she adjusts, great. If she doubles down, believe what you are seeing and stop handing her your good news like it is something for her to critique.

In the meantime, share the sweet updates with people who can simply say, "I'm happy for you," and mean it.

A real friend claps when you win, no matter what. A real friend won't say, "I'm happy for you, but..." Real friendship and support is unconditional.

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"Out of Bounds: Estrangement, Boundaries and the Search for Forgiveness" is out now! Annie Lane's third anthology is for anyone who has lived with anger, estrangement or the deep ache of being wronged -- because forgiveness isn't for them. It's for you. Visit http://www.creatorspublishing.com for more information. Follow Annie Lane on Instagram at @dearannieofficial. Send your questions for Annie Lane to dearannie@creators.com.